I got prizes for:(a) Getting highest for English (b) Getting top 5 in the whole of form 2
"Pelajar terbaik setiap mata pelajaran (Bahasa Inggeris)"
"Pelajar terbaik tingkatan 2 (ke-5)" Like WHOA. Until now it's still surreal to me and I still very sakai over getting freaking top 5!! That puts me in the circle of "the real smart-asses" in class. WHOA. ME?? Here's how I've been doing through my secondary school life so far. In form 1 the best position i got was 15. Then for the next 3 exams my position was 20+ and my average never got more than 80 cause then i really didn't bother and couldn't care less bout my studies. Then this year I thought I'd better start getting serious.
First exam: Position-22; Average-81%
Second exam: Position-14; Average-82%
Third exam: Position-15;Average-80%
FINAL EXAM: Position-5; Average-90%
Woohhooo~! Yea, i worked my butt off for the final exam just hoping to stay in top 15 but BOY did i exceed my expectations! I couldn't believe it myself when the results came back. I could only Praise the Lord for all He's done..!
From this exam and seeing what I am able to achieve, I learned something outside of the textbooks. ANYTHING is possible when you have faith. I know this line is said often but forgotten once impossibility and failure comes. But I am a testimony that that line is truth. All we really need is faith, and perseverence. You'll be amazed and what you can achieve with these two weapons in your arsenal. When you put God first in everything you do, He will crown your efforts with success.
I always thought it was impossible for me to ever be one of the top-5 's. But I've proven myself wrong and showed myself the extent of things I am able to achieve. So I'm thinking, there must be so much more I can achieve. This experience has empowered me to push myself to new heights and see just how much I can do with faith and perseverence. I prayed every time before studying and just all the time that He will help me do my very best for His glory.So i Praise and Thank Him for His faithfulness and goodness. :)
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We waited for our cars in the church. We sat and talked. Making extra efforts to fill in every moment of silence before the unwritten subtext plays loud and clear between us. Then the topic comes up. The topic that brought us close but today it pulled us apart. She speaks, she beats around the bush and I can read her every effort to nail in the point she was trying to make gently, yet effectively. "You don't think he really loves me?" I asked, willing her to cut straight to the point. She looks down at her feet then up at me,"No"
I felt like the entire ocean crashed into me and filled me up. I felt confused, overwhelmed. I felt like drowning. She speaks again but the words pass me by like a flock of birds. Her words like a poison dart injecting it's contents into my blood and killing me slowly. How could she say that.
So she continues " Serene you know you're a very strong girl. If it was me...."
Right then and there I break down and cry. I don't know why I'm crying though. For once, I don't think. I just cry and let the moment swallow me up. I don't know what to feel, I can't feel anything. My insides have gone totally numb and I just cry for some of the ocean to escape out of me so I don't feel so pent up.
Then I stop. I refuse to meet her eye and she realizes she has hurt me. She's painfully sorry but an apology no matter how sincere cannot erase the thoughts she has planted into my head nor stop them from growing.
First exam: Position-22; Average-81%
Second exam: Position-14; Average-82%
Third exam: Position-15;Average-80%
FINAL EXAM: Position-5; Average-90%
Woohhooo~! Yea, i worked my butt off for the final exam just hoping to stay in top 15 but BOY did i exceed my expectations! I couldn't believe it myself when the results came back. I could only Praise the Lord for all He's done..!
From this exam and seeing what I am able to achieve, I learned something outside of the textbooks. ANYTHING is possible when you have faith. I know this line is said often but forgotten once impossibility and failure comes. But I am a testimony that that line is truth. All we really need is faith, and perseverence. You'll be amazed and what you can achieve with these two weapons in your arsenal. When you put God first in everything you do, He will crown your efforts with success.
I always thought it was impossible for me to ever be one of the top-5 's. But I've proven myself wrong and showed myself the extent of things I am able to achieve. So I'm thinking, there must be so much more I can achieve. This experience has empowered me to push myself to new heights and see just how much I can do with faith and perseverence. I prayed every time before studying and just all the time that He will help me do my very best for His glory.So i Praise and Thank Him for His faithfulness and goodness. :)
***
We waited for our cars in the church. We sat and talked. Making extra efforts to fill in every moment of silence before the unwritten subtext plays loud and clear between us. Then the topic comes up. The topic that brought us close but today it pulled us apart. She speaks, she beats around the bush and I can read her every effort to nail in the point she was trying to make gently, yet effectively. "You don't think he really loves me?" I asked, willing her to cut straight to the point. She looks down at her feet then up at me,"No"
I felt like the entire ocean crashed into me and filled me up. I felt confused, overwhelmed. I felt like drowning. She speaks again but the words pass me by like a flock of birds. Her words like a poison dart injecting it's contents into my blood and killing me slowly. How could she say that.
So she continues " Serene you know you're a very strong girl. If it was me...."
Right then and there I break down and cry. I don't know why I'm crying though. For once, I don't think. I just cry and let the moment swallow me up. I don't know what to feel, I can't feel anything. My insides have gone totally numb and I just cry for some of the ocean to escape out of me so I don't feel so pent up.
Then I stop. I refuse to meet her eye and she realizes she has hurt me. She's painfully sorry but an apology no matter how sincere cannot erase the thoughts she has planted into my head nor stop them from growing.
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